Sins

why there must be a sin? if Allah SWT promised heaven for the believer?

...

i stood pensive looking at the notes a friend who wrote it thereby complicated

and i nodded agree with writing that is in the record of my friend

and a few weeks after that, i bought some books with titled

"i got close you are near" by Yadi Saeful Hidayat

i find the answer!

"and (by) the soul and He who proportioned it. 

and inspired it (with discernment of) it's wickedness and it's righteousness

He has succeeded who purifies it,

and he has failed who instills it (with corruption)"

Ash-Shams (91): 7-10

everything was on our grasp

you can be good or you can be bad

sin is come from the lust that you can't control it and  can't manage it. example

if you can control your meal maybe you can lose your weight, right?

if you can manage your money maybe you can save your money

control and manage

that's why, there is patient and sincere

so we can be grateful to what Allah SWT gave to us

and if there is no lust maybe we can be like angel

no eat

no love

no children

no education

no science

no technology

everything was flat

...

Dear my Friend

something change with our friendship

it wasn't adversative or recreancy

but

become a silent and awkward

from comfortable 

to uncomfortable

you know why we can be like that?

because "something change" between us too

the "change" start from me

im sorry

im sorry from starting "the change" first

im sorry for telling you a promises that i can't or never dissapointed you

im sorry for indulgence you about our plans that we must get it in the future

im sorry for hear your daily problem

im sorry for try to solve your problem

im sorry for keep nagging you in the middle of night

im sorry for money that you spend for me

im sorry for that i ever exist in your daily life

im really sorry

i try to keep distance from you

i try to not care

i try to act cool 

i try to confirm me that my change doesn't change anything in your life

i try to confirm me that you doesn't care with my change

but

i can't

everytime i see your face, make me feel guilty 

im afraid that if you see me you realize that 

how close we are before can become so awkward right now

and make you feel more depressed

this guilty really burdensome

 cause i know who really you are

...

i hope that you accept my writing apologize

Our Remedy

life is just a test, they will be a better soon

maybe i am not right person to tutor you about life, 

yes i just 20'yo girl who doesn't really know about life either

yes i am just little girl who doesn't really know about definetly of the real world 

but please listen to me

some people say that "my chilhood was better than my life right now"

have you ever think why our chilhood was really happy?

my answer is

...

because Allah SWT want we to get close to him

because Allah SWT know that our death is getting closer 

and Allah SWT want we to die in state of jannah

because Allah SWT wont we to live in hell and have a long bad torment

because Allah SWT really love you

think about it

...

subhannallah 

maybe this video will find your remedy, cure or your way out

link of the video

Journey to Mt. Slamet

Mount Slamet or Gunung Slamet is an active stratovolcano in the Purbalingga Regency of Central Java, Indonesia. It has a cluster of around three dozens of cinder cone on the lower southeast-northeast flanks and a single cinder cone on the western flank. The volcano is composed by two overlapping edifices. Four creater are found at the summit. Historical eruptions have been recorded since the eighteenth century. Gunung Slamat was closed to climbers for much of 2010 and 2011 but was opened in late 2011. A large number of climbers were expected to visit to peak on New Year's Eve 2012 to celebrate the new year cr http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mount_Slamet  (Wikipedia) well, luckly i've ever been climbing there(mount slamet) no i mean mountaineering. it's six month ago maybe i dont remember.

i'm the one who wear white clothes, sorry for my bad face and my friends face too :p

 this photo has taken on the top of mountain slamet. unfortunately that day we had bad weather so it become fog everywhere. as you can see mount slamet has 3428 meter below sea level and mount slamet was 2nd of the highest mountain in java (Indonesia). well imkind of shock cause i have been through there and strugling in that mount haha. anyway, i'll be introduce and some tips and my experience too at mountain slamet. (y) in September 2014, mount slamet had eruption this is the second eruption after 2009. mount slamet doesn't have kind eruption like mount krakatau http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Krakatoa which have been made dust and fog and red clouds in europe at that time. do you know The Scream? the painter has made this paint cause someone scream about the change of weather in 1893 on norwegia. you know that in 1893 krakatau has eruption or like mount 

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mount slamet has really lower level of eruption around volcano mountains in Indonesia so why mount slamet called "slamet" it means "safe".but the level of eruption can be incrase by the time it means maybe in the future mount slamet can be have eruption like krakatau did. some local people said that mount slamet can split between west java and east java cause it happened because of the emergence of a large fracture that extends from north to south. Each region will then be shifted and away from each other. that's terrible right?

Cr.

my university is near to slamet mount it called Jenderal Soedirman University (cr or cr) and i had hiking three mounts there was Sumbing mount , semeru mount and slamet mount. so i had a chance to hiking there

there is 3 tracks on slamet mount, batu raden near Purwokerto, bambangan (Purbalingga) and Kali Wedas near Tegal. but you should choose track 2 (bambangan) cause bambangan was the official track to hiking slamet mountain so it will be safety. as you see there is 5 post on pict but in reality there is 8 or 9 post on bambangan track. if you want to go to bambangan you must go to purbalingga (central java)

this is a pict of bambangan base camp

you should not hiking on november-januari cause it's rainy season. why can't i go? cause slamet mountain is lush mountain there is so much tree and will be slippy and of course cold haha. i was hiking on may but is rainy :( so slippy huhu. oke forget that, so you must register your id/self, how long you will be hiking and manymore to basecamp cause it will be help you if you lost on the mountain. after that you ready to hiking slamet mountain. 

if you start to go to post 1 you will see this gate near the base camp it means "gate of mountaineering slamet mountain" "post of bambangan, purbalingga city". after you cross the gate you will see cabbage farm on your right side and a river on the left side. i don't know exactly how far bambangan to post 1 but i think it's pretty far hehe

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this is post 1, as you can see is like house right? you can laying around on that post surely. there is so much space in this post. on that time i take shelter 3 hours in this post cause of heavy rain. hmm in my opinion the distance of post 1 to post 2 and post 2 to post 3 is very very loooooong maybe post 2 and post 3 there is no more house just like large ramp with sign post and big three everywhere, done. ah you should wear long pants and clean up your meal cause there is a monkey, wild boar and leech everywhereeee. it's getting darker when i get to post 4 and post 5 because i got stuck on post 1 so there is so much delay in our plan. another tips! you shouldn't camp on post of samaranthu (post 4/5 i don't remember) the people said in that post is place of ghost, well i heard from my friend in slamet mountain there is some people was hiking in the night and suddenly there is pocong  (you can search on google) falling in front of the track, creepy right? haha well fortunately i didn't see them on my journey hahaha alhamdulillah. well the track to post 4 to 5 it will be like drainage culvert small, wet, slippy and dark because it's already dark when i go to this post and i already so tired cause we must camp on post 5 and we never get a camp before. it's really tiring sad tired combine on my body i almost cry i always sighing while we walk on track really really tiring the best tiring journey i think haha 

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so this is post fiveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! finally huhah! i get thereeee on the midnight i think im really happy when my friends tell "we get on post 5!" when my feet touch the post i feel really relieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeve and the scenery just beautifull we can see the central java like star so bling bling ah just majestic from this post :).

so i sit on the ground and yelling to the star that i really thankfully for god who made this beauty scenery and i tell to my friends that i almost crying then i just laying like a dead wood around 15 minutes after that we make a meal, set up the camp because we must get up early to chase the peak in the morning well it become heavy rain when we finish setting the camp then we sleep in this post. in the morning we make a meal and just continue to next post and we just bring one backpack that contains some food and water. post 6. the post that the limit of gravel ground and forest ground. well when we get to the post 7 it becomes more slippy cause there is no big rock like post 6 to post 7 so you must be carefull when you get to this post and i almost cry too when i see my friend who stand in front of me, we'll see the track is around 60 degree so i my head must really looked up. then i get it...

it's something!

YEHET!

i get the peak! thanks Allah SWT!

my first peak

i can't describe it  to much feel in this peak sorry hehe

thanks for my team my friend to courage me up until this peak hehe

and my parents to allow me for this journey, love you!

All the Time

Aaa.. wanna share my lungs

All the Time

It's face the Sun

It's just, like a burning pain

That i be alone

All the Time

...

|All the Time-The SIGIT|

again and again. mocked by people, All the Time

i always tell myself to control my feel through people

because is enough pain that i deserve all the time

but i can't

they say "we broke up" "you're my bestfriend forever"

i feel so relieve that's someone know i am exist

but not long they forget everything like get amnesia

they just care and chase their "really main character"

and left me nothing after they get scene with them

...

perfect

Kind of waste

kadang you feel that you need someone so badly
tapi he never show up, kalo emang show up you tell them everything that you want to tell
and after that, you realize that it will be waste cause we can't ever send feedback.
karena lo percaya kalo orang itu gaakan mengubah apa apa,
orang itu cuman pengen tau bukan care
lagian perhatian juga mau buat apa,
kalo akhirnya gua bakal kecewa cause i always expect more
karena cewek selalu mengharapkan yang lebih dan gua gamau jatuh ke lubang yang sama
jadi lebih baik you know me slightly aja
past just past
i dont care about you and you either
so i can walk on my path and you can walk on your path
will be happy just like that

1109

happy birthday dad
selamat ulang tahun papah

wish you have a better sleep better meal and better life
maafin aku dengan segala kenakalan yang udah bikin papah puyeng
mau masalah kecil maupun yang besar banget
papa yang pertama yang mengantar aku ke tempat kuliah yang sama sekali belum pernah kita jamah
papah gapunya saudara maupun teman disana, tapi papah dengan berani mau mengantar aku dengan modal nekat. naik bis yang tak pernah kita naiki sebelumnya. bis yang penuh dengan orang yang merokok. bis yang mogok di tengah perjalanan. but you always cheering me and say that's everythings gonna be okay with your smile hang in that face. aku gatau kalo papah sebenernya juga ngerasa ngedown saat bisnya mogok dan parahnya aku malah diem dan engga ngelakuin apa apa buat papah. aku juga gatau kalo perjalanan itu memakan waktu 9 jam di bis ekonomi malam hari dengan papah yang udah tua dan aku yang merengek.

daddy who always want to be perfect for everything
papah selalu melihat detail baju yang kita pakai saat acara kelurga apapun. selalu mengharapkan anaknya hapal alquran dan aku cuman bisa pelanga pelongo browsing tentang k-pop tanpa henti selalu update sedangkan bacaan quran ku tak pernah aku update. pakaian ku yang masih acak adul belum menutup aurat tapi papah selalu mencoba menerima aku apa adanya. i don't know what he think when i can't be what he want. i'm sorry dad, later i will be a better person i promise :)

you're my mystery

my remedy

i miss you

1109

Happy Birthday Wu Yifan!

selamat ulang tahun buat kamu kamu kamu

well thanks for being in my brain and my heart 

while there is many empty room that you were already fulfill.

you said that for meigeni "thanks for supporting me but you must care yourself too"

but how do i care with myself when everytime you do something im gonna michigo?

can you stop me fan? No you cant!

all the best wishes for you, yes you my fantasy husband :)

i always try to reach you but i cant

kamu di Guangzhou aku di Indonesia

kamu lagi sibuk belajar ini itu aku merintih minta update ig kamu

aku lagi sibuk kerjain tugas kuliah sama cobaan hidup ini itu kamu malah datang dengan sederet update-an foto kamu yang lagi interview sama your director atau recording your song atau main basket dengan bando wanita kekinian

how dare you..

fly high to the galaxy, my giant superman of dragon!!

cr

maybe meigini's wishes can make your dreams come true :)

some picture that i find in tumblr

im sorry i didn't credit it

ah my heaaaaaaaaaaaaaart..

Respectful

being respectful its not easy like you said.

you may hold your ego

you may hold your selfish

you may like being fake

it's not about our age

but it's about humanity and our freedom.

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Play with people's feeling

"im sad :(("

"why you sad??"

"i can't tell you cause this is secret hehe"

that was a crime.

play it like a toy. you push and then you pull me off oh great!

i don't understand why you must do that to me? 

are you having fun play with my feeling?

is not enough to play with me for a little while ago?

or did i do something bad to you?

lo tau, itu tuh jahat kaya gitu

emang sih gua gatau maksud lo apa

tapi

kenapa harus gua yang lo gituin?

maybe you didn't care what i feel

...

Strangers

stranger means:

"A person whom one does not know or with whom one is not familiar"

"A person who does not know, or is not known in, aparticular place or community"

"A person entirely unaccustomed to (a feeling, experience, or situation)"

"A person who is not a member or official of the House of Commons"

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life just go by as fast as we walk pass through the door and it will be there is something new (not know, not familiar) new things will come up. we don't know something "new" at behind the door that already waiting for us or welcoming us and maybe rejecting us. the funny things is we will have some who "welcoming us" then become "rejecting us" and who "rejecting us" can become "welcoming us", funny isn't it?

LIFE DOESN'T LET YOU TO UNDERSTAND

but life will let you to learn

so thats why we must move on! we will learn as long as we move on. if you stop moving foward we will stuck by our past things which can be wasting our times to meet our "new thing"s.

cr

OT10: NO MORE EXO

well, i have been liking EXO for ten months ago
i know EXO in their reality show: EXO Showtime. that was amazing show
actually i never think that im gonna like EXO cause when their first debut with MAMA i think its weird
especially in the rap line when the member has a tattoo on their face, its kind scary which this is the first song for their debut. maybe everyone can say that cool or something but i say that scary hehe and their concept just like illumminati things huhu why must the title name is MAMA? i dont understand. beside that the member cannot take my heart to liking them with their new face even sehun cant take my heart upon to him haha. i just like WHAT IS LOVE and HISTORY in MAMA album because their melody is nice i think. so im done with EXO after that. i never take time to see their new song WOLF or their activites. im not interest.

i like weekly idol show. everytime i watch it i will laugh until my stomach hurt so much. there is a time when weekly idol has a EXO for their guest star. well i just focus with their gag especially hodong oppa and donni oppa. im not interest with EXO do and how they look i never care.
UNTIL...
my friend tell me GROWL. how nice the music is and how amazing the mv is. so i watch it on youtube and YES the music was NICE and the dance was INCRIDEBLY niceeee!!. first thing i didnt know that EXO. until i play the mv again again and realized that song from EXO. cause i playing the mv again again i interest with someone on the group. it is TAO from EXO-M. i just now growl song and didnt interest with their activites tho. until i watch EXO SHOWTIME. GOD! IM IN LOVE WITH EXO :(
bla bla bla im become a fanatic fan haha following their activities following their news instagram blabla. when i heard EXO makin reality show XOXO i become excited! WOHOO!! cause i think its gonna be like EXO SHOWTIME but thats not life bro..
life doesnt like it when its always happy for to long
so no more KRIS in EXO. im like WHAT? are you kidding me?! where is WE ARE ONE slogan?
member unfollowing him on IG one by one. it was unfair. im sad. why exo can be like that? i dont understand. so my heart bit changing to EXO with this kris case
because this weirdness kris case, i concern to KRIS. i have wondering why kris like this why EXO like that
and probably i turn my crush to KRIS not TAO again haha sorry. i really sad with EXO attitude with kris case. i feel like EXO member hate kris cause they feel like betrayed on kris which kris just go and didnt tell anything about why he just go out from EXO. oh GOD where is WE ARE ONE slogan BRO?!
bla bla bla
fortunatelly, kris just do a good things with his new activities like movie, photoshoot or making some song and he gain his popularty and YESSSSS THANKS GOD!! kris never die just because he departure from EXO. i LOVE YOU WU YIFAN.
bla bla and know luhan.. oh god. i smell something fishy in this group. WHY?!!!
oke im done with EXO
-END-

im sorry for who read my comment i hope you understand
this is just my opinion not the whole EXO FAN opinion haha

kesel gua kenapa sih pada adem anyem aja. pas kris keluar pada ngeunfollow ignya eh pas luhan keluar
malah tetep ngefollow. yaampun mana slogan WE ARE ONEnya?? -_-
udahlah do your solo thing aja deh EXO

CURRENT MOOD

PLEASE STOP

well, i need stop the time
gatau kenapa pengen aja berhentiin waktu
mungkin saya sedang penat dengan "dunia" yang hiruk pikuk ini
cari kerjaan? ada kerjaan mah ada tapi..
males aja dikerjain
cepet banget waktu berjalan
tidur udah pagi kuliah tidur siang bangun sore ga ngapa-ngapain ampe malem
dan tidur..
gitu aja tiap hari
engga ada motivasi
mungkin kah?
saya terperangkap dalam zona nyaman saya?
i hate it..........
i need a help, GOD

Wu yifan a.k.a Kris Update!!

this is some update of Wu yifan that you cant miss it!

SOWK PRESS CONFERENCE

140911

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"just the way you are"

well kris still handsome and so gummy with his own galaxy style

in this conference as you can see SOWK (someone only we know) tell about their memories on this film. 

JEALEOUS!

the best part is Wu Yifan sing All Of Me by jhon legend

you can see in this link

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uqPoBvOFpOU

beautiful right?

so who say that Kris cant sing? haha

OUR STREET STYLE

WEIBO UPDATE

140916

so exo and kris have their mcm with different day and different place

ahh this feeling :(

BAZAAR CHARITY IN CHINA

140919

#helloactorwu

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FLAWLESS

KrisYeol-Our Precious

hello!! 

this is krisyeol stan speaking! hehe

let me introduce to our precious prince

prince number 00 is wu yifan aka kris who live in guangzhou, china and he is combination of cute shy and cool man

and

prince number 61 is park chanyeol who live in seol work with SM and he is combination of cute and wanna be cool man

they always care each other in different way which can be cute way, cool way or beast way

and thats why i love them in different way :3

but

sad thing is wu yifan not an exo member anymore

so no more krisyeoooool!!!

WHYYYY???!! :(

but

its wrong, cause chanyeol wear wuyifan clothes in EXO CONCERT wuhuuuu!!

and he post photo in his instagram about his palm hand with leaf in love form

AND YOU KNOW..

if you look close his palm make line that mean wu yifan name in chinese :))

ahaaaaaaa i know you miss him chanyeeoool kekeke!

Being Mature

i do overthinking
cause im just growing up and gonna be adult
pretend to be cool in every situation
but inside
you really want to hold someone's hands
really want to hug someone
and cry out loud

well, i ever read that being mature and you will be ready for being alone
i think i know that means
dont you realize that being adult your friend will be gone one by one
i mean not gone at all but busy with their activity like with her boyfriend
with her future like busy with their thesis or something else that called "busy"
maybe cause i dont have boyfriend so i always be alone? -_-
oh damn.. i must get boyfriend!
...
Nah... i dont need boyfriend right now..

All those crazy things

"sometime when i miss you

i put this record on"

"And i remember all those crazy thing you said

you left them running through my head"

"bagaimana caranya?

ku melupakan mu"

"im still into you.."

Hei haters

HELL YEAH! 

SEE MY DAMN CUTE ASS HUH?!

lemme tell you what i want

lo gila ya?| itu susah tau..| itu terlalu tinggi.|

oh shit man..ini lah kata kata yang keluar dari orang orang yang gabisa bercita cita tinggi.
ya iyasih cita cita gua emang kadang ga dimasuk diakal, tapi apa salah gua bercita cita tinggi
dan ga dimasuk akal? apa dosa gua kalo bercita cita setinggi dan semegah itu? oh my god..
gua punya hak privasi gua kan? yaudah itu hak gua yeeeee...

kadang suka kesel dan ngedown sendiri kalo ada yang bilang perkataan diatas saat gua lagi
mengebu gebunya cerita tentang cita cita gua. kayak bayi lagi ngedot terus dotnya diambil
terus bayinya mewek. nah gua bayinya. kan soekarno aja bilang "gantunglah cita cita anda pada bintang
yang tertinggi apabila anda jatuh anda akan jatuh diantara bintang bintang"

theres nothing stable in this life, right?

Kehidupan ini selalu memperbarui wajah dan perilakunya, 

sehingga tak mungkin ada orang yang sepenuhnya mengerti tentang kehidupan.

Maka cukupkanlah upayamu untuk mengerti perilaku kehidupan 

yang sering kau sangka moody dan temperamental kepadamu itu.

Cara terbaik dan terdekat untuk mengerti kehidupan adalah mengenal dirimu sendiri.

Hatimu bergetar dengan musik kehidupan yang sesuai dengan sikap dan perilakumu.

Jika engkau berlaku lembut dan indah dalam keseharianmu, musik kehidupan ini mengalun indah dan melambungkan jiwamu dalam kebahagiaan yang dulu hanya kau impikan.

Tapi, jika engkau kasar dan palsu kepada dirimu sendiri, kepada keluarga, dan kepada sesamamu, hatimu akan digoreng dalam kuali kegelisahan dan kemarahan yang tak bersebab dan berujung.

Sesungguhnya, keindahan hidupmu kau tentukan sendiri dalam pengindahan sikap dan perilakumu.

TAOTAOTAO

you sexy man
i dont know you
and absolutely you dont know me either
youre eyes cant lie
you are sad right?
missing you bestfriend?
keep strong!
you can through this

all you need is time flies

Im Sorry, Im Not Perfect

maaf ya gua ga perfect

im not the prophet 

im not the angel

i just little girl

i just who i am

truly you ruin my world so easy

thanks :)

 

why who makes everyone happy is who the most feeling lonely?

Kenapa seseorang yang membuat orang-orang yang disekitarnya bahagia adalah seseorang yang paling merasa kesepian?

itu adalah pertanyaan yang tersirat dalam pikiran gua selama ini. kenapa kaya gitu? apa penyebabnya? 

kalo menurut gua sih pertama; karena kita belum menemukan orang yang sepaham dan memiliki rasa yang sama saat kita kalo lagi sendirian atau lagi kalap jadi setiap kita curhat ke orang-orang gada yang ngena kedalem hati kita, gada yang ngerti akibatnya karena kita udah tau gada yang mengerti kita ga pernah curhat ama orang lain then orang lain ngerasa kita bahagia terus karena kita jarang cerita-cerita tentang masalah kita ke orang lain PADAHAL mah boro-boro. kedua; karena kita tau rasanya kesepian itu kaya gimana. THATS IT! jadi kita gamau orang lain tau rasanya kesepian maka dari itu kita selalu membuat orang lain bahagia with our way. Buat kalian kalian yang ga pernah ngerasa kesepian berbahagialah, karena kesepian itu sangat menakutkan. ketiga; ya mungkin karena kita sudah beranjak dewasa? kayaknya tumbuh jadi dewasa adalah pintu menuju kesepian deh dengan rutinitas yang itu melulu terus banyak hal yang kita korbankan, banyak hal yang kita maklumi banyak hal yang orang ga perlu tau cukup kita dan tuhan yang tau, banyak hal yang harus memiliki alasan untuk kita tersenyum oh damn i hate to be grown up.